Caren Ware's Blog

November 22, 2011

Doing the Dirty Work

Filed under: Uncategorized — Caren Ware @ 10:30 am

Though the air was chill, bodies were steaming from sweat as hundreds gutsied out sand bags, concrete jumps, walls, and mud pits. To muddy the waters, the Riverside County Sheriffs dug a football field size mud pit, filled it with murky water, and put it between the participants and the finish line. We were at a training area of March Airforce base in Riverside County. My  PRIME TIME crew worked well in the dirt.  Looks like the public likes it too. I don’t think there was one person who thought they wished they had not tried it.  Despite shoes literally left stuck in the mud, and the shiver temperatures, spirits were high flying, high fiving.  The Airforce even equipped the area with outdoor generators that produced heat!  I am not sure who had more fun; the competitors or the uniformed boys that got to ‘play’ drill sargent to the civilians as they shouted for them to pick up their sandbag and”‘GET GOING.  I DIDN”T SAY WALK.  I SAID RUN!!!”  Hats off to the boys and gals in uniform that had fun designing and doing the Defenders Mud Dash.

November 21, 2011

A GREAT MUDDY MESS!!! Thanks to innovative Riverside County Sheriffs and the Airforce

Filed under: Uncategorized — Caren Ware @ 10:02 pm

November 2, 2011

Being a SPORT

Photogrpaher, David Palmer ,captures my sport with a professional artist eye.

Photos from when “I got shot”.

Not too much

Filed under: fitness,Women Running — Caren Ware @ 8:10 am

Can I share with you something you already know? I have some defense mechanisms  that have not served me too well. I over accommodate people that far from deserve it and do ridiculous things…spend my own money, time, and toil to appease them. A spice of this is good and keeps business coming back. But I tend to take on a full plate of people that take advantage of it.  My feeling of flight may be flight from myself and HOW I DO business. I get myself entrapped in over the top situations about weekly. That is easy to do in a business that demands over the top anyway. I could use some protection from myself. I need a good manager…good self-manager…a good clear responding me.  It will be good to see what happens as I try and let others be accountable for themselves.

These past weeks have been good for business, but not so good for me internally. When  pressed, my mechanisms take over whether I want them to or not. A side flare of embellishing stories. .Picking up the tap. Saying yes when NO is so very appropriate. Going only slightly ‘oh well’ when someone blatantly drops the ball…and then doing it for them. I am the one responsible for the consequences of my own flaw though I deny it.  I pretend it is because others make me do it. Life without this excess is already a load! Life overloaded is havoc.  How can I care about you, but not feel obligated? Learning to do so is a quest of mine.
I can already see how resentment would take that flight out of my life instead of me wanting flight from the very situations I over create.

With over obligation, I start to feel fake, hollow, and scared and the walls go
up…and I start to be invaded by  this…don’t get too close to me feeling that shuts out even the things I want close to me. Help me to not go there. It wastes precious time in life.  There is so much worth getting close too.  I am going to love you for you by not helping you TOO much.  I’ll offer that great balance of just a little more than enough because that is who I am. But remind me not to love you too much.

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